Touched By An Angel of Love !!!!

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Dear Readers,

To be honest I have been in love or assumed that it is love many times in life. Somehow this time it is a little different, different in a good way for a change. Remember the feeling when something really fits without any efforts as if it was made just for you. I wish I could explain his eyes and how the sound of his voice gives me butterflies. How his smile makes my heart skip a beat and how every time I am with him, I feel complete. I really don’t know when it happened, somewhere in between our text messages, our game nights, our phone calls, our jokes, our laughter, out talks, I fell for you. I was lost, when I found you and today you are a home to my heart and together is a wonderful place to be.

Life is very difficult. You have to fight through the bad days to earn some good days of your life. Not everyone will understand your journey. The truth is,”Your journey has made you what your today”. You are here to live your life and not to make everyone understand.

In today’s world, everyone wants to have it all and to tell you the truth it is never possible. Life is so ironic, it takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence and absence to value presence. Just make the best of what you have. Live your today with all your heart and live your tomorrow with a hope that it will be better.

In a world full of people that want to judge you and pull you down, I found you. You found parts of me I did not know existed in you. I found a love I no longer believed was real. I found a new universe in your arms. I found a perfect partner in you. I found the love and the affection I thought was lost. I found possessiveness, madness, and passion in your love. I found recognition, respect, and forgiveness. I found my reason to live. I found a treasure of love buried under my own bone. Finally, as if that wasn’t enough, I found myself in you. Some people search their whole life what I found in you. I found my Angel of Love.

I don’t know where I stand with you and I don’t know what I mean to you. All I know is every time I think of you, I want to be with you, my angel.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia.

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The Lightbox

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Dear Readers,

Sometimes I get stuck in this dark box where everything seems difficult and sad. Here I feel lonely, I feel paralyzed, I feel low. What if, one day I cannot move from here anymore? What if I am stuck for life? What if my plan of life does not work? I am scared, I am tired of fighting for my own life.

Have you ever felt like you don’t know what going on anymore in your life? Like you don’t care about anything anymore. You have lost your motivation to do anything. You are confused with your own feelings and you cannot explain how you feel. You have the feeling of emptiness and the feeling that no one is there for you. That feeling that no one understands you anymore. And it seems there is nothing to look forward anymore. Yeah, I get these feelings too.

Growing is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere where you don’t belong. Letting go has nothing to do with “quitting”. Ask yourself,”Am I sticking it out or am I staying stuck?”. You know your self better than anyone.

Everyone is insecure about something, it’s not just you. You will never be 100% sure about the decisions you made in your life. But always make a decision because it’s better to go back and fix it than to never make it at all.Sometimes you will make the wrong decisions but you will save the energy and time to recover from it than if you make no decision at all.

We typically compare the worst we know of ourselves to the best we presume about others. There is always someone better than you. So there’s no point in comparing.

The strongest, happiest, the most successful people are NOT those who always win, but those who don’t give up when they lose. They fail forward. So keep calm when everything seems to be going wrong. You may feel weak, but your spirit is strong. When things are tough, you must be tougher. Don’t pray for an easy life; pray for the strength to endure a hard one that leads to long-term success and happiness. Nothing worthy in life comes easy.

Kindness is not to be mistaken for weakness, nor forgiveness for acceptance.You forgive people because you’re strong enough to know that people make mistakes. It is very hard for some people to keep their ego behind them and forgive others, but when you do forgive them you will definitely experience the load lift up from your mind and heart. Because that marks the point that you are able to move forward and are capable of making your life comfortable.

Truth be told, there are only a few people in this world that will stay 100% true to you, and YOU should be one of them.Create a life that feels good on the inside, not one that just looks good on the outside to everyone else. It is hard, I am sure.

It is always hard to lose something that has many memories with you but quite often, the successful people that act the happiest are the ones that have overcome the most. Sometimes you have to lose something precious in order to gain something priceless. Never regret your past mistakes and failures, because they have given you strength. They teach you about every aspect of life and how to act upon any problem you face. The one who falls and gets up is much stronger than the one who never fell.

The story of your life has many chapters. One bad chapter doesn’t mean it’s the end. So stop re-reading the bad one already and turn the page. Accept what is, let go of what was and have faith in what could be. If you cling on to your past, you will never move forward. It is hard to let go of your yesterday’s struggle but remember, life does not have to be anywhere near perfect to be wonderful in the end and that everything happens for the very best reasons. This is the part of the facts of life that guides you on every step of your journey, the one you know and the one you don’t know.

Don’t see this as a dark box where you feel stuck, see it as a lightbox where the box is all about the light of hope. A box where you find all that you always wished for. Believe in yourself!!! Life is much more than what you see and let the bigger picture find you.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia

We Will Survive !!!

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Dear Readers,

Are we sad, hurt, angry, mad, disappointed and we put on a happy face and move on? We have been put down many times and still we rise again much stronger than before? Have we already been through hell and gave our best shot? We never give up on anything, we are survivors !!

Some people have seen so much in life that they have learned how to get out of any bad situation. They know tomorrow will bring them what they deserve even if it is little too late. They have done nothing wrong to anyone and nothing wrong will happen to them. There is nothing good in their lives but still, if you see them you feel that you want to have a smile like them. They are strong and fearless. They will never accept anything wrong in their lives even if there is a price to pay. They always know when to stay and when to move on. It is ok to be alone rather than to be in a place where you are not yourself. They don’t fight and waste their energy on stupid things, they just say what they have to say and stop caring about what the world has to say in return. It hurts them to know that they tried doing their best to keep the relation and still it wasn’t good enough.

No matter how hard life gets, we will still smile. It might knock us down but it cannot keep us down forever. Once the storm is over, we won’t remember how we made it through, how we manage to survive. But one thing certain, when we come out of the storm, we won’t be the same person anymore. We are given this life because we are strong enough to live it. They always shine.

Just a message to all the people that are finding their way to survive,”Life is too short to be in a bad surrounding and think that it is your destiny, Life is about kicking some badasses and making your life the way you dreamed. Stop complaining and start taking control of your own life. Do the right thing and wait for the right thing to happen. Nothing good is easy to get and nothing good comes in a hurry so just sit back and smile”.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia

I Deserve Better !!!

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Dear Readers,

Have you been that person in life who has always cared about others feelings first? Have you not judged and respected everyone’s feelings? Have you always had an approach to understanding everyone out of the box? Have you always forgiven everyone who hurt you even if they have hurt you like a million times? Have you been hard on yourself just to make the opposite person happy and never expressed it at all? Have you kept your feelings to yourself just to avoid fights? Has your life been only about giving everything that you had? I guess no one ever understood why you do this, right?

In the process of making the world a better place some people just tend to forget themselves. It is so hard for them to step up and say,” What you said, hurt me, it’s not my fault and I don’t deserve this”. It is because they have been through a lot in life and a small amount of happiness means a lot even if it comes with a lot of compromises. They don’t want to miss out on any happiness even if it costs them their whole life. They are ok to let go of their anger, ego, attitude, self-esteem, and self-respect in order to be truly happy just for a few moments.

We don’t understand that everyone deserves better. Just that people that deserve don’t give up on people that they love. This quality should not be taken for granted. The problem is not with the person that took you for granted, the problem is yourself. You made excuses for their bad behavior, you accepted their obvious lies and you gave them another chance, again and again. You sold yourself for less, you did not believe you deserved better and you stayed too long. You learned the hard way, but you learned. You heart finally told you to stop wasting time. You deserve that love that you keep trying to give to everyone else. Never settle for shitty coffee, shitty friends or shitty men.

I told myself today that I deserve better. Maybe one day I will believe it.

Regards,
Swati chaurasia.

Not all wounds are visible Mr. Judgemental

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Dear Readers,

We live in a society where we love tagging and labeling people. We tag them on the base of color, religion, money, eating habits and many more, I am sure it is a never-ending list. Sometimes without us even realizing, these judgments become a part of our beliefs about that person. When did we become so shallow in our thinking about other people?. When did we stop having an open mind about our thinking about others? When did we start to decide whom we want to talk to or be around without knowing the opposite person 1st handed? Why are we making our life complicated by judging everything and believing it as if it is a fact of life?

It is good to have an opinion about people that we have known in life. We maybe had bad experiences and that is how we would have landed up to a conclusion of the person. It is a good thing, it helps us to protect our feelings and these kinds of feeling should be respected. When did we start doing the same without knowing the opposite person and started calling that our opinion? It’s not our opinion, it’s our judgment and so we are Mr.Judgemental.

With our judgemental nature, we do hurt a lot of people and not all wounds are visible. We forget the fact that we can never understand the opposite person unless and until we have not been in their shoes. Then what is the point of judging them, to hurt them more or to show yourself that you have a better life? Everyone needs mental support and judgment just makes it more and more difficult. If you cannot help someone with their problems, you have no right to comment too. It is ok not to agree with others point of view or decisions but at least we can respect their decision with open arms. If we cannot even do that then, A humble request, just leave them alone !!!

To all the people that have been judged,”Never waste your time trying to explain who you are to people that are committed to misunderstanding you”. We are aware that we are less than some people, but some people are unaware that we are so much more than what they see. We already have a difficult life and your judgment just makes it even worst. Some people are lucky that they have a life with everything they ever wanted but for some people, they have to build everything right from scratch without support. Thinking is difficult, that’s why most people judge.

Know my story first and then you have all the right to judge me. Don’t judge me just because I think differently than you.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia

Sometimes it is better to move on !!!!

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Dear Readers,

Life is all about making choices, making mistakes and forgiving mistakes. If we don’t make mistakes then I feel we are not humans, we are dead zombies walking on the road waiting for the world to get ended. The point is not making mistakes but what we do about it when it has happened. Do we run away and feel guilty all our lives or we stand and face everything? If we are the victim then do we try to end our lives or we try to move on and live a better life? Let study both these situations.

What if it is our mistakes? I feel realizing that it is our mistake is the first step to correct them. This also shows that we are really sorry for our mistakes. Being forgiven for our mistakes is not in our control but saying sorry and not repeating again is only that we can do. One of the most important thing about this situation is,” Forgiving yourself”. The guilt of the mistake made by you can haunt you for life. It is better to forgive yourself because it is the only thing that will help you to move on and live a better life.

What if we are the victim? Sometimes it is better to move on as a victim instead of being the only person to fix things. Moving on never helps the opposite person, It helps you to deal with the situation and lead a positive life. If you have got hurt by someone and your heart has been broken multiple times, a wiser person is a person who is able to stand still in such a situation and smile and learn something positive from that situation. Sometimes it is just done, just walk away and move on, no ugly words, no formal goodbye, just no more and no looking back. You have to accept things the way they are and moving on can be the only solution.

Maybe sometimes it is not always about trying to fix something broken, maybe it is about starting over and creating something better. Sometimes we just have to let things go. Once you realize you deserve better, letting go will be the best decision ever.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia

Born to be alone !!!

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Dear Readers,

Love leads us to whole new different level in life. It either makes us a better person or breaks us to pieces so small that cannot be stuck together ever. I am the second kind. Broken childhood, a bad father and a lot of broken relationships. Still, I had always hoped that someday someone so good will come in my life and all of my past will just fade away as if it was never a part of my past.

Today somehow I feel all my broken relationships are my fault. Maybe I am not a person born to be in any relation. A person like me should be alone. People blame other for their bad relations, I blame myself. I always wanted to be that girl who has one person who loves her like crazy. All of my life till date I have done everything to get that and somehow I am still alone.

The common thing in all my relationships till date is me. I have to stand up and face the mirror, It is because of me. My track records say that I am born to be alone but I feel I should be alone. I have hurt so many people in life that I don’t deserve a happy ending. I should be punished to be alone and face my fears all by myself. It hurts knowing that I tried doing my best but it still wasn’t good enough. I had always thought that we are born to be real but I guess we have to be perfect to fall in love.

Life always gives you a chance to change and I guess this is mine. Time to change for others and live however you want and let others live happily.

Regards,
Swati Chaurasia